Sorry I haven't posted in ages, I just haven't found the time recently, what with a few parties going on over the weekends, and then school with a few times meeting up with my girlfriend... And I haven't felt this happy in a long while! My life's all going good at the moment.
Back to my no-life side then, where I'm beginning to really envy people. Call of Duty: Modern Warfare 2 seems to have gripped a lot of my close friends (seeing as most of them have an Xbox) and it's beginning to annoy me, the fact that I'm not talking to some people as much because I don't want to find out about the game. I was planning on getting it around Christmas time, but I think I might already have it...
Another game that's on my list this year is Left 4 Dead 2. I have the demo on my Xbox and it looks to be really good.
I'm really getting quite hyped up for Christmas now. I suppose it's my girlfriend's influence, she's so excited for it, I think it's beginning to rub off on me.
But really, I haven't got a lot to say. This was primarily to say sorry for not posting recently, but I haven't thought about what to say. Sorry for the excuse of a post...
Bye for now.
Saturday, 14 November 2009
Monday, 2 November 2009
2nd Half
So I'm back at school after the week break. I had a lot of work to do for today, and all of it was done last night. I'm so unorganised and lazy! Most of the work was music work. I had to learn a song to perform to be recorded and I also had an essay to write. So yesterday I had my work cut out for me... I managed to finish it all though.
I'm really happy with the choice of song I made for my performance. I decided to learn Hit Me With Your Rhythm Stick on bass, as I mentioned in a previous post, and I thought it might be a bit challenging, and it was... For about 5 minutes! Once I'd got the hang of the rhythm it becomes a breeze to play and it's also an awesome bass line! I had a lot of fun recording it but during the recording I had a complete mind-blank. It doesn't matter entirely because it's only being marked by the class, but I won't be able to do that on the 3rd February - Music Recital Evening, conveniently timetabled a day after my 17th birthday. Huzzahs.
I've been less about Xbox recently, and more about bass and stuff. I mentioned Soul Band in the last post I made. When I went back this morning I was handed a small folder of sheet music and tabs by the teacher who's organising it. I love his enthusiasm and excitement for it! Apparently throughout the holiday he was working on these transcriptions for Soul Band. I really can't wait to start playing, some of the songs that we're doing will be really fun to play. To be honest, with some of the things he's saying to do, it's not much of a soul band, but more of a soul/funk/70's pop mix band. So far we have a line up of:
Superstition - Stevie Wonder
Respect - Aretha Franklin
Heard It Through The Grapevine - Marvin Gaye cover
Toxic (All souled up) - Originally by Britney Spears, idea from Mark Ronson
Part-Time Lover - Stevie Wonder (again...)
I Feel Good - James Brown
YMCA - Village People (I questioned this one...)
That's The Way - KC And The Sunshine Band
Soul Man - Sam & Dave (Never heard of these guys but I know the song... How strange)
As I said, I really can't wait to get on with it! It'll be really good if we have a prime spot in the next big school gig with these songs.
Other than that, I'm seeing someone now, and have only really been (officially) for the last, what, 24 hours? Could be why I'm quite happy at the moment!
I don't really know what else to say to be honest. Half day tomorrow, so I'm meeting up with my new could-be girlfriend (I didn't really know how else to word that!) so yeah. That's about it.
Bye for now.
I'm really happy with the choice of song I made for my performance. I decided to learn Hit Me With Your Rhythm Stick on bass, as I mentioned in a previous post, and I thought it might be a bit challenging, and it was... For about 5 minutes! Once I'd got the hang of the rhythm it becomes a breeze to play and it's also an awesome bass line! I had a lot of fun recording it but during the recording I had a complete mind-blank. It doesn't matter entirely because it's only being marked by the class, but I won't be able to do that on the 3rd February - Music Recital Evening, conveniently timetabled a day after my 17th birthday. Huzzahs.
I've been less about Xbox recently, and more about bass and stuff. I mentioned Soul Band in the last post I made. When I went back this morning I was handed a small folder of sheet music and tabs by the teacher who's organising it. I love his enthusiasm and excitement for it! Apparently throughout the holiday he was working on these transcriptions for Soul Band. I really can't wait to start playing, some of the songs that we're doing will be really fun to play. To be honest, with some of the things he's saying to do, it's not much of a soul band, but more of a soul/funk/70's pop mix band. So far we have a line up of:
Superstition - Stevie Wonder
Respect - Aretha Franklin
Heard It Through The Grapevine - Marvin Gaye cover
Toxic (All souled up) - Originally by Britney Spears, idea from Mark Ronson
Part-Time Lover - Stevie Wonder (again...)
I Feel Good - James Brown
YMCA - Village People (I questioned this one...)
That's The Way - KC And The Sunshine Band
Soul Man - Sam & Dave (Never heard of these guys but I know the song... How strange)
As I said, I really can't wait to get on with it! It'll be really good if we have a prime spot in the next big school gig with these songs.
Other than that, I'm seeing someone now, and have only really been (officially) for the last, what, 24 hours? Could be why I'm quite happy at the moment!
I don't really know what else to say to be honest. Half day tomorrow, so I'm meeting up with my new could-be girlfriend (I didn't really know how else to word that!) so yeah. That's about it.
Bye for now.
Sunday, 1 November 2009
Half Term end
Today's my last day before I head straight back into the hellhole that is the school.
And I've so much work to do.
I haven't done any. Good one me.
I should be working on it now, but I've practically only just got up.
So the parties were OK. Both nights, however, were occupied with looking after one person, but I didn't mind that as such. The Halloween party I went as a Jedi (predictable, right?) and everyone was in awe of the sadness. I took my £60 lightsaber because I thought I should actually do something with it, and many people couldn't believe I'd spent the aforementioned £60 on it. But I think it's awesome, and at least some people saw the lightsaber as "cool" or "worth it if you're into that kind of stuff" which is how I see it. It's probably going to be on my wall for years, I doubt I'll get rid of it.
Yesterday I went to Denmark Street with my dad to look for 12 string guitars. It wasn't too bad a day, although I do slightly regret doing it because of the work I have to do today.
The day before that I went to London, near Denmark Street. That's right, I went there two days in a row. That day was for an audition for my brother, and he needed company. I went to Forbidden Planet, which is a great shop, but obviously not great enough to sell Jedi costumes suitable for teenagers and young adults. Damn them.
I think I'm going to stop here, simply because I need to get on.
Bye for now.
And I've so much work to do.
I haven't done any. Good one me.
I should be working on it now, but I've practically only just got up.
So the parties were OK. Both nights, however, were occupied with looking after one person, but I didn't mind that as such. The Halloween party I went as a Jedi (predictable, right?) and everyone was in awe of the sadness. I took my £60 lightsaber because I thought I should actually do something with it, and many people couldn't believe I'd spent the aforementioned £60 on it. But I think it's awesome, and at least some people saw the lightsaber as "cool" or "worth it if you're into that kind of stuff" which is how I see it. It's probably going to be on my wall for years, I doubt I'll get rid of it.
Yesterday I went to Denmark Street with my dad to look for 12 string guitars. It wasn't too bad a day, although I do slightly regret doing it because of the work I have to do today.
The day before that I went to London, near Denmark Street. That's right, I went there two days in a row. That day was for an audition for my brother, and he needed company. I went to Forbidden Planet, which is a great shop, but obviously not great enough to sell Jedi costumes suitable for teenagers and young adults. Damn them.
I think I'm going to stop here, simply because I need to get on.
Bye for now.
Tuesday, 27 October 2009
Half term
This week is half term.
It's already Tuesday. Might sound early in the week but humpday's imminent...
... And I've done hardly anything... I have a Music essay to write, a song to learn to perform for Music, a couple of songs to learn for Soul Band, and some light reading for Physics.
Heh, that can all be done another time.
Today, my Oyster card finally arrived through the post. I sent off for it a while ago (although later than everyone else because I lost the form for a couple of weeks) but at least now it's here. For those who don't know, an Oyster card is like a travelcard, it allows you to get on London buses for free and London Underground at a reduced rate. It's a stupid little thing but worth the wait, otherwise it's like, £2 for a single bus ticket and around £10 for a day travelcard on the Underground, which also takes into account buses and trams and stuff, if you use them. It's also rather stupid that it can't actually be used for ID, even though you have a passport photo of you on there and in big writing near it "16+". This one only lasts for a year as well... It's stupid.
Also, I was asked by my parents a couple of days ago to wash and clean the car, which I did today. I got £20 for it, so perhaps the day's work was worth it. But I'm very tired now, and I can't be bothered to do any more work today.
It's strange, at the moment I actually have money. It's weird to feel a bit of weight behind my wallet for once.
So, for that aforementioned song I have to learn to perform to the class, I decided to set a challenge for me, in attempt to perhaps better myself. I'm going to perform "Hit me with your rhythm stick" by Ian Dury and the Blockheads. It's quite a hard thing to do, and I'm running into the performance blind, because they've only published a list of pieces and grades for lead instruments, which means that everyone else has an idea of the standard of piece that they should be performing, or they can actually just pick a song/piece from the list, whereas I haven't the faintest idea what song is what grade or I don't have a list. It's rather annoying that they haven't included a list of pieces for the rhythm or backing instruments, I mean, not everyone decides to play piano, violin, guitar, trumpet, saxophone etc etc... Someone has to provide a rhythmic backing!
The aforementioned Halloween party I talked about is on Saturday, and I'm still in the same position as last week...
Ooh, and I still haven't watched Revenge of the Sith yet. I really should do that... Sometime this week perhaps. Maybe even tonight!
I went to see a film on Saturday. For the first time in quite a while, I have to say. I went to see Up in 3D with a friend, and it must be said, I was quite impressed with the 3D aspect of it. I've seen the 3D films in the Imax before but that was when I was younger, and didn't quite understand the whole thing. Most of the time though, the 3D effect was used to give depth or a sense of distance, rather than the whole leap-out-in-your-face kinda thing. It wasn't a bad film either.
Ohhh, and being the sad me that I am, I can't go without saying that I've been playing a LOT of Xbox recently. GTA IV seems to have been hitting the spot recently, just out of pure boredom, driving around and generally just doing random things to make me laugh slightly out of my own self-pity.
Yeah, I can't think of much else to say, so...
Bye for now.
It's already Tuesday. Might sound early in the week but humpday's imminent...
... And I've done hardly anything... I have a Music essay to write, a song to learn to perform for Music, a couple of songs to learn for Soul Band, and some light reading for Physics.
Heh, that can all be done another time.
Today, my Oyster card finally arrived through the post. I sent off for it a while ago (although later than everyone else because I lost the form for a couple of weeks) but at least now it's here. For those who don't know, an Oyster card is like a travelcard, it allows you to get on London buses for free and London Underground at a reduced rate. It's a stupid little thing but worth the wait, otherwise it's like, £2 for a single bus ticket and around £10 for a day travelcard on the Underground, which also takes into account buses and trams and stuff, if you use them. It's also rather stupid that it can't actually be used for ID, even though you have a passport photo of you on there and in big writing near it "16+". This one only lasts for a year as well... It's stupid.
Also, I was asked by my parents a couple of days ago to wash and clean the car, which I did today. I got £20 for it, so perhaps the day's work was worth it. But I'm very tired now, and I can't be bothered to do any more work today.
It's strange, at the moment I actually have money. It's weird to feel a bit of weight behind my wallet for once.
So, for that aforementioned song I have to learn to perform to the class, I decided to set a challenge for me, in attempt to perhaps better myself. I'm going to perform "Hit me with your rhythm stick" by Ian Dury and the Blockheads. It's quite a hard thing to do, and I'm running into the performance blind, because they've only published a list of pieces and grades for lead instruments, which means that everyone else has an idea of the standard of piece that they should be performing, or they can actually just pick a song/piece from the list, whereas I haven't the faintest idea what song is what grade or I don't have a list. It's rather annoying that they haven't included a list of pieces for the rhythm or backing instruments, I mean, not everyone decides to play piano, violin, guitar, trumpet, saxophone etc etc... Someone has to provide a rhythmic backing!
The aforementioned Halloween party I talked about is on Saturday, and I'm still in the same position as last week...
Ooh, and I still haven't watched Revenge of the Sith yet. I really should do that... Sometime this week perhaps. Maybe even tonight!
I went to see a film on Saturday. For the first time in quite a while, I have to say. I went to see Up in 3D with a friend, and it must be said, I was quite impressed with the 3D aspect of it. I've seen the 3D films in the Imax before but that was when I was younger, and didn't quite understand the whole thing. Most of the time though, the 3D effect was used to give depth or a sense of distance, rather than the whole leap-out-in-your-face kinda thing. It wasn't a bad film either.
Ohhh, and being the sad me that I am, I can't go without saying that I've been playing a LOT of Xbox recently. GTA IV seems to have been hitting the spot recently, just out of pure boredom, driving around and generally just doing random things to make me laugh slightly out of my own self-pity.
Yeah, I can't think of much else to say, so...
Bye for now.
Monday, 19 October 2009
Ill
So I'm writing to you now during my day off because I feel so ill.
And even though I'm feeling crap physically, I'm kinda happy emotionally.
A new week starts today and with it I am going to change my perspective on relationships. As I've been thinking about it, sure, there's plenty of benefits to being in one but there are many benefits while being single. I have all the time in the day to myself, I don't have to follow anyone around and most importantly to me, I can be who I am. The self-confessed nerd, the game-addicted, obsessive, bored-a-lot-of-the-time, geeky, nervous me that you've all come to know and (hopefully) love over the last couple of years.
Ironically, it seems like I'm busy enough in the relationship area anyway, people seem to have taken me as their relationship adviser!
What I mean to say is, hopefully, you won't be seeing many posts like the last couple of posts again for a little while. Which means high fives all around.
Good news! Yesterday I was given £40 by my parents. Because they had to pay for my brother to go on this sailing trip with his diabetic cohort at the hospital, they decided to give me a bit of money just to be fair. Guess what I brought? A new Xbox Live headset. I can talk again! I had to, I couldn't bear sitting in silence anymore!
So yeah. Today I'm going to be sitting around doing nothing. I want to watch my TV in my room but my brother's off too, being tired from the weekend. Damn him...
I've been watching the awesomeness of Star Wars again. I've already watched The Phantom Menace and Attack of the Clones. Today, if I can on my TV, I will be watching Revenge of the Sith. I want to watch all the episodes from the beginning, and I'm almost half way.
There's a halloween party fast approaching. I have no idea what I will go as... I might just have to go Jedi, people are actually expecting it now!
Me and the friend-who-lived-at-my-house really wants to join a soul band. Handy, because one of the music teachers at school wants to make one. Win!
I don't have a lot else to say. I'll report back when I do have something to say.
Bye for now.
And even though I'm feeling crap physically, I'm kinda happy emotionally.
A new week starts today and with it I am going to change my perspective on relationships. As I've been thinking about it, sure, there's plenty of benefits to being in one but there are many benefits while being single. I have all the time in the day to myself, I don't have to follow anyone around and most importantly to me, I can be who I am. The self-confessed nerd, the game-addicted, obsessive, bored-a-lot-of-the-time, geeky, nervous me that you've all come to know and (hopefully) love over the last couple of years.
Ironically, it seems like I'm busy enough in the relationship area anyway, people seem to have taken me as their relationship adviser!
What I mean to say is, hopefully, you won't be seeing many posts like the last couple of posts again for a little while. Which means high fives all around.
Good news! Yesterday I was given £40 by my parents. Because they had to pay for my brother to go on this sailing trip with his diabetic cohort at the hospital, they decided to give me a bit of money just to be fair. Guess what I brought? A new Xbox Live headset. I can talk again! I had to, I couldn't bear sitting in silence anymore!
So yeah. Today I'm going to be sitting around doing nothing. I want to watch my TV in my room but my brother's off too, being tired from the weekend. Damn him...
I've been watching the awesomeness of Star Wars again. I've already watched The Phantom Menace and Attack of the Clones. Today, if I can on my TV, I will be watching Revenge of the Sith. I want to watch all the episodes from the beginning, and I'm almost half way.
There's a halloween party fast approaching. I have no idea what I will go as... I might just have to go Jedi, people are actually expecting it now!
Me and the friend-who-lived-at-my-house really wants to join a soul band. Handy, because one of the music teachers at school wants to make one. Win!
I don't have a lot else to say. I'll report back when I do have something to say.
Bye for now.
Tuesday, 13 October 2009
Apologies
Sorry for the last post, for the fourth or so time.
Situation's not any better, but I'll leave that there.
So the only thing going on in my life at the moment is school. That's all. I've nothing else to do, so it's pretty much the only thing I do.
I've said this to a couple of friends who I talk to already, but I wanted to see if this was a general consensus in other places too, or if it's only at my school. I have a theory that there's a kind of window of opportunity, so to speak, every so often. There's no set time or anything. It's where everyone, and I mean, EVERYONE gets into some kind of relationship. For me, that period is now, everyone around me is off into their own relationship groups. It's almost like one person starts it, and everyone else gains confidence to make a move too. Lately my normal group of friends who I talk to during break and lunch has significantly reduced from about 10 or so to only 3-4, including me. I mean, I know I'm a social outcast, but there's been such a significant change that it's taken me aback a bit. I mean, now I'm feeling slightly dead in the water.
That leads me onto something. Me and my friend-who-lived-at-my-house friend came up with a good analogy for being single (shortly before getting into a relationship). We think that being single is like being in the ocean, splashing around or whatever. Adding to it now it could be after some kind of accident putting you into the water (or breaking up from a previous relationship). When you find someone you start swimming towards the land until you're in a relationship, high and dry. Obviously there's me, splashing around, but as I said earlier, everyone else is on land or getting there. Not a bad analogy if you ask me.
Now it might seem that I've started to become slightly obsessed with relationships, but it's the times at the moment. It seems to be the priority for everyone. Get there first kinda thing.
So I'm sitting here after a double free period afternoon, still thinking about everything.
Back to the sadness that you all know and love me for, I'm beginning to see Call of Duty: Modern Warfare 2 to be my giftmas present. And hopefully, a bit of money so I can buy a new Xbox Live headset, I'm fed up of sitting in silence now.
To be honest, there's not a lot going on in my sad little world, I think I'm concentrating too much on trying to leave it, only to eventually embrace it again when I get put down.
I have a bit of Physics homework to be doing and after that an evening of leisure, so...
Bye for now.
Situation's not any better, but I'll leave that there.
So the only thing going on in my life at the moment is school. That's all. I've nothing else to do, so it's pretty much the only thing I do.
I've said this to a couple of friends who I talk to already, but I wanted to see if this was a general consensus in other places too, or if it's only at my school. I have a theory that there's a kind of window of opportunity, so to speak, every so often. There's no set time or anything. It's where everyone, and I mean, EVERYONE gets into some kind of relationship. For me, that period is now, everyone around me is off into their own relationship groups. It's almost like one person starts it, and everyone else gains confidence to make a move too. Lately my normal group of friends who I talk to during break and lunch has significantly reduced from about 10 or so to only 3-4, including me. I mean, I know I'm a social outcast, but there's been such a significant change that it's taken me aback a bit. I mean, now I'm feeling slightly dead in the water.
That leads me onto something. Me and my friend-who-lived-at-my-house friend came up with a good analogy for being single (shortly before getting into a relationship). We think that being single is like being in the ocean, splashing around or whatever. Adding to it now it could be after some kind of accident putting you into the water (or breaking up from a previous relationship). When you find someone you start swimming towards the land until you're in a relationship, high and dry. Obviously there's me, splashing around, but as I said earlier, everyone else is on land or getting there. Not a bad analogy if you ask me.
Now it might seem that I've started to become slightly obsessed with relationships, but it's the times at the moment. It seems to be the priority for everyone. Get there first kinda thing.
So I'm sitting here after a double free period afternoon, still thinking about everything.
Back to the sadness that you all know and love me for, I'm beginning to see Call of Duty: Modern Warfare 2 to be my giftmas present. And hopefully, a bit of money so I can buy a new Xbox Live headset, I'm fed up of sitting in silence now.
To be honest, there's not a lot going on in my sad little world, I think I'm concentrating too much on trying to leave it, only to eventually embrace it again when I get put down.
I have a bit of Physics homework to be doing and after that an evening of leisure, so...
Bye for now.
Saturday, 10 October 2009
I've been putting on a face...
--- Alert ---
I could tell you that everything's all fine and dandy at the moment, but if I said that, I'd be lying.
So fuck it, here's the truth. I feel awful. Down all the time, annoyed, isolated, left out, jealous, bored.
I don't know why I decide to hide these from people. I hate to offend anyone, I don't like asserting myself in front of people, I try to be as nice to people as I possibly can.
Which is why now I'm a wreck of a person, no life, no money, probably not many friends that I can call upon in major times of need, I sit around all day doing fuck all and I'm never invited anywhere.
I'm a loner. And I know it.
I also know that other people know that I'm a loner. My problem is, I don't care. I don't care what people think of me. I always thought that if you don't assert yourself or if you're not in their faces all the time people might actually like you more. That's not true in my case.
Can I be asked to change? Probably not.
I never want to become an arrogant arsehole and hopefully I never will be, but that seems to be the way to do things in this world. Those who are seem to be better off.
Sometimes I look at the world and despise what it has become. Trying to be good, nice to everyone and such doesn't get you anywhere anymore.
I try to be the best I possibly can in front of people. I try to be nice, to not offend, to stay on the good side of people. I'd love it if, in most cases, this would be returned.
I say all of this, and yet, there are many people at my school who are great to me. Because of that, I have no idea why I feel this way.
I'm too jealous for my own good. I hate it if people are better than me, or have more than me. That's most people in my life. I'm like Plankton on Spongebob Squarepants, a small, brooding nobody who wants to be recognised and have everything.
I'm not a malicious person. I hope. All I want is to be talked to, or noticed, or whatever you're willing to give. I don't ask for it, I don't like to be in the spotlight at every given time or assert myself in front of everyone. I just want to be acknowledged.
I'm being held back in life at the moment. I hate myself for being this way. I go on Facebook or whatever and everyday I feel the icy cold dagger of the past stab me through the heart, I feel guilt for bottling up feelings that shouldn't be there, that I cling onto even though I shouldn't.
A memory wipe would be ideal I think.
I'm sorry, this is a major rant post, and I didn't enjoy writing it. I'm sorry if I've offended anyone who's read this shameful excuse for a post. I have nowhere else to vent this. I need to get things off my chest.
I'm ashamed I'm even posting this, I can usually deal with things but I've felt so crap for so long now, it needed to get out somehow.
Again, I'm sorry. I hope my next post will have a slightly better tone.
It's the weekend, and as per usual I have nothing planned.
School's going OK I suppose. In Physics, 85% particles and 67% electricity in the tests aren't so bad. In Music, grade C effort 1 maintain is also pretty good. IT's just generally easy and boring and Music Tech, well that's getting harder.
Parents and brother have gone out to Uxbridge, the local shopping town. I'm on my own. Again.
So I'm sitting here, venting my angst and aggression into cyberspace.
I'm off, before I say any more.
Bye for now.
I could tell you that everything's all fine and dandy at the moment, but if I said that, I'd be lying.
So fuck it, here's the truth. I feel awful. Down all the time, annoyed, isolated, left out, jealous, bored.
I don't know why I decide to hide these from people. I hate to offend anyone, I don't like asserting myself in front of people, I try to be as nice to people as I possibly can.
Which is why now I'm a wreck of a person, no life, no money, probably not many friends that I can call upon in major times of need, I sit around all day doing fuck all and I'm never invited anywhere.
I'm a loner. And I know it.
I also know that other people know that I'm a loner. My problem is, I don't care. I don't care what people think of me. I always thought that if you don't assert yourself or if you're not in their faces all the time people might actually like you more. That's not true in my case.
Can I be asked to change? Probably not.
I never want to become an arrogant arsehole and hopefully I never will be, but that seems to be the way to do things in this world. Those who are seem to be better off.
Sometimes I look at the world and despise what it has become. Trying to be good, nice to everyone and such doesn't get you anywhere anymore.
I try to be the best I possibly can in front of people. I try to be nice, to not offend, to stay on the good side of people. I'd love it if, in most cases, this would be returned.
I say all of this, and yet, there are many people at my school who are great to me. Because of that, I have no idea why I feel this way.
I'm too jealous for my own good. I hate it if people are better than me, or have more than me. That's most people in my life. I'm like Plankton on Spongebob Squarepants, a small, brooding nobody who wants to be recognised and have everything.
I'm not a malicious person. I hope. All I want is to be talked to, or noticed, or whatever you're willing to give. I don't ask for it, I don't like to be in the spotlight at every given time or assert myself in front of everyone. I just want to be acknowledged.
I'm being held back in life at the moment. I hate myself for being this way. I go on Facebook or whatever and everyday I feel the icy cold dagger of the past stab me through the heart, I feel guilt for bottling up feelings that shouldn't be there, that I cling onto even though I shouldn't.
A memory wipe would be ideal I think.
I'm sorry, this is a major rant post, and I didn't enjoy writing it. I'm sorry if I've offended anyone who's read this shameful excuse for a post. I have nowhere else to vent this. I need to get things off my chest.
I'm ashamed I'm even posting this, I can usually deal with things but I've felt so crap for so long now, it needed to get out somehow.
Again, I'm sorry. I hope my next post will have a slightly better tone.
It's the weekend, and as per usual I have nothing planned.
School's going OK I suppose. In Physics, 85% particles and 67% electricity in the tests aren't so bad. In Music, grade C effort 1 maintain is also pretty good. IT's just generally easy and boring and Music Tech, well that's getting harder.
Parents and brother have gone out to Uxbridge, the local shopping town. I'm on my own. Again.
So I'm sitting here, venting my angst and aggression into cyberspace.
I'm off, before I say any more.
Bye for now.
Monday, 5 October 2009
Tim Minchin...
... Was awesome!
Absolutely loved it, it was really good.
I don't have much else to say about that.
In fact, I don't have a lot to say this time around.
I'm in a reflective mood at the moment. Wandering around Reading, specifically Riverside, made me remember certain memories that I'd forgotten. They were good times.
I'm also a bit pissed off again. Remember two weeks back I lost out on my free afternoon due to Citizenship? Well, it happened again, although this time I had to stay in a bit longer. Stupid school.
I actually am beginning to think I've lost friends more than gained in Sixth form.
It's a shame, I thought I was brimming with things to say, but I'm really not. I'm sorry for this excuse of a post! And sorry for the big, happy start, it's seemed to descended a bit.
I'm off now.
Bye for now.
Absolutely loved it, it was really good.
I don't have much else to say about that.
In fact, I don't have a lot to say this time around.
I'm in a reflective mood at the moment. Wandering around Reading, specifically Riverside, made me remember certain memories that I'd forgotten. They were good times.
I'm also a bit pissed off again. Remember two weeks back I lost out on my free afternoon due to Citizenship? Well, it happened again, although this time I had to stay in a bit longer. Stupid school.
I actually am beginning to think I've lost friends more than gained in Sixth form.
It's a shame, I thought I was brimming with things to say, but I'm really not. I'm sorry for this excuse of a post! And sorry for the big, happy start, it's seemed to descended a bit.
I'm off now.
Bye for now.
Tuesday, 29 September 2009
Recon
I noticed I hadn't blogged in a little while, and I thought I might do it while I am currently listening to "Shopping" by the Pet Shop Boys for Music Tech. We're going to have to re-create the song completely, eventually.
Yesterday I claimed THE Halo 3 top prize of them all. Recon armour.
<-- My player now...
Yes, I'm actually that sad. I completed all the "Vidmaster" achievements which allowed me to unlock it. The last one I had to do was on the ODST mode Firefight, and we got a very, very, stupidly high score of over 1.5 million. Have a look if you so wish to witness the true extent of my sadness.
Problem is, I never do any good online as a human. I have to be an Elite normally, just to do good.
I've practically completed ODST already, as in, 100% completed it. I've done it on Legendary, regrettably not solo, but that will happen soon. I've almost got all the achievements and stuff.
I played some Halo online earlier and to be honest, I didn't do too good.
Most games I got a negative kill to death spread. I think I'm going to have to go back to Elite for a little while.
Anyway, back to reality. I've got to listen to the aforementioned song continually to get it into my head.
I also have two bars of a four part harmony in four different keys, two major and two minor, to complete. I've practically transposed it to the other three keys now, and we're given the soprano line which we initially transpose, which I have to harmonize with in the bass, tenor and alto parts. So it's all fun. I'm not going to do that tonight though. I also have physics homework to do. Why did I leave this until last minute? Damn it...
I'm beginning to get bored of the aforementioned song. That's not a good sign, seeing as I'm going to be working on it pretty soon.
I haven't got much else to say to be honest. Halo has retaken over my life... And it seems like I'm powerless to stop it. That or I have no willpower.
Ooh yeah, Tim Minchin coming up this weekend.
Anyway, back to my homework and stuff.
Bye for now.
Yesterday I claimed THE Halo 3 top prize of them all. Recon armour.
<-- My player now...
Yes, I'm actually that sad. I completed all the "Vidmaster" achievements which allowed me to unlock it. The last one I had to do was on the ODST mode Firefight, and we got a very, very, stupidly high score of over 1.5 million. Have a look if you so wish to witness the true extent of my sadness.
Problem is, I never do any good online as a human. I have to be an Elite normally, just to do good.
I've practically completed ODST already, as in, 100% completed it. I've done it on Legendary, regrettably not solo, but that will happen soon. I've almost got all the achievements and stuff.
I played some Halo online earlier and to be honest, I didn't do too good.
Most games I got a negative kill to death spread. I think I'm going to have to go back to Elite for a little while.
Anyway, back to reality. I've got to listen to the aforementioned song continually to get it into my head.
I also have two bars of a four part harmony in four different keys, two major and two minor, to complete. I've practically transposed it to the other three keys now, and we're given the soprano line which we initially transpose, which I have to harmonize with in the bass, tenor and alto parts. So it's all fun. I'm not going to do that tonight though. I also have physics homework to do. Why did I leave this until last minute? Damn it...
I'm beginning to get bored of the aforementioned song. That's not a good sign, seeing as I'm going to be working on it pretty soon.
I haven't got much else to say to be honest. Halo has retaken over my life... And it seems like I'm powerless to stop it. That or I have no willpower.
Ooh yeah, Tim Minchin coming up this weekend.
Anyway, back to my homework and stuff.
Bye for now.
Saturday, 26 September 2009
I am hungry for some unrest... I want to push you beyond a peaceful protest...
Title is lyrics from "Unnatural Selection" by Muse.
Which brings me onto a good topic to start on. Earlier on this week I got an email from them, saying that extra Europe and Scotland tickets are going up for sale, Thursday for fans only, and Friday as a general sale. I looked down the list and there was the two nights for the O2 arena.
To be honest, I wasn't expecting to get tickets.
How right was I?
My dad tried both days. No luck. I mean, come on Muse, when you do these things, put them onto a good website. Not one that clogs up and says that the server's busy.
I got Halo 3: ODST. A day late, of course. Still I managed to finish it on Heroic before other people who got it on the day finished. I had to help out my friend on Legendary because he didn't know where he was going. So I helped him and now I've completed the game twice. Got all the difficulty achievements and stuff. I really want to run through it solo on Legendary though. It's an extremely fun game. Yesterday on Firefight we played until all the skulls (difficulty multipliers) were on. It was stupidly tough and ended up all dying at the end of that round. We got a combined score of over 500,000 and the game lasted about 2 hours. This was on Normal difficulty though... I really want to play more Firefight, with all possible 4 players. I've done it solo, 2 players, 3 players... But never 4!
Something terrible tells me I've been neglecting my friends while playing ODST. Like I don't talk to some people anymore. Recently I've rarely been on a computer at all.
In the wake of Halo 3: ODST, I haven't done much else. So I haven't got much interesting to say really... Other than I need an Xbox headset. A new one. I can't deal with being able to hear people and not being able to talk...
So that's about it really.
Bye for now.
Which brings me onto a good topic to start on. Earlier on this week I got an email from them, saying that extra Europe and Scotland tickets are going up for sale, Thursday for fans only, and Friday as a general sale. I looked down the list and there was the two nights for the O2 arena.
To be honest, I wasn't expecting to get tickets.
How right was I?
My dad tried both days. No luck. I mean, come on Muse, when you do these things, put them onto a good website. Not one that clogs up and says that the server's busy.
I got Halo 3: ODST. A day late, of course. Still I managed to finish it on Heroic before other people who got it on the day finished. I had to help out my friend on Legendary because he didn't know where he was going. So I helped him and now I've completed the game twice. Got all the difficulty achievements and stuff. I really want to run through it solo on Legendary though. It's an extremely fun game. Yesterday on Firefight we played until all the skulls (difficulty multipliers) were on. It was stupidly tough and ended up all dying at the end of that round. We got a combined score of over 500,000 and the game lasted about 2 hours. This was on Normal difficulty though... I really want to play more Firefight, with all possible 4 players. I've done it solo, 2 players, 3 players... But never 4!
Something terrible tells me I've been neglecting my friends while playing ODST. Like I don't talk to some people anymore. Recently I've rarely been on a computer at all.
In the wake of Halo 3: ODST, I haven't done much else. So I haven't got much interesting to say really... Other than I need an Xbox headset. A new one. I can't deal with being able to hear people and not being able to talk...
So that's about it really.
Bye for now.
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